Vanity of Vanities II

What do you do when hope slips in a deluge.... You have to make tough decisions that sometimes cause great pains.
As King Solomon wrote in Ecclesiastes, most of the decisions men come
to garner praise for tend to be non positives in the the near or great future.
In hindsight, we look at situations and seemingly understand all implications, this is why
an insightful person (such as Solomon was) looked at carnal success and, for
lack of a better word, lamented at its percieved trivaility. Lost b/t knowing and notknowing. I know now that I've lost you, and have completely
stopped making any semblance of sense, but I'm currently dealing with matters of such intricacies. Embarking on this odyssey that I that I think is beneficial as far as my moves go, but how do i know I'm right when I have
starving folks calling me all day wanting my help and knowing that i CAN help.
Yet in my eyes, helping means straining what little resources I have and not
achieving streamlined goals that I think fate has set. This is where the conflict
resides. You think fate has set this so-called path that you're supposed to follow,
and that becomes your excuse for being selfish at times, but who knows what fate has really planned for you.
And then again one has to believe in "fate" to even ponder the idea.
For us that believe in the path of life, there is also a fatal flaw to
our holistic views: we make compromises to said path, but hail fire on any
outsider who dares knock us off this road even for a split second.
so....
What do you do?
In Vanity of Vanities, I stressed Bible studies
now I make all excuses not to go, in just a short span of time.
Well, school work has actually taken over my whole schedule plus I have commuting issues.
But like I said, excuses!

The Best Laid Schemes of Mice and Men....

...sometimes go astray.

It's been a long time since I blogged. Well, I've just been away b/c things have been goin south; south of south. Three weeks ago, I got word that my older sister passed away (drop everything moe, you're back at square one). In a total state of shock, I went down to the waterside at old town to reflect on the whole situation. They said she was in great pains, a symptom of her sickled cell disease. I tacitly wondered what the money I sent home just three days before was used for (not that i send money home as often as I probably should, but nonetheless wondering). I took a tuesday off to finally break myself down and find some way to mourn. Otherwise, I'd go through the week in shellshock, being callous to everything around me including school work. So to the waterside in nostalgia of my younger days in fourah bay. I then caught a Matinee at Hoffman, "Capitalism". In that isolated theatre, I cried my eyeballs out for over an hour, fell asleep, woke up and went to Joseph's gravesite. From there I was ready to continue my week.
Besides that
it seems a lot of doors were closed, albeit nothing could really dampen the the great things that's happend this year, I've caught some Ls. But a the end I thank God for everything. Those Ls were battles lost in a war won by me. They were all related to my recent success, so they better had made me stronger-er. Success clouded by the unthinkable of course.

Rest in Peace M'Balu Sankoh, May Christ Always be with You.

Going to school...

...it sometimes feels like an accidental anachronism.

Silver lining

In the deepest depths of our despair when our backs are aginst the proverbial walls, that's the best time for our inner most examination and contemplation. No matterhow bad it gets, things will always get better, so when we remember that we can rebuild, it's the primal time to reconstruct our foundations. It's easier to bounce back from failure than it is to sometimes switch from and improve an agreeable situation. The silver lining then, is the cliche': if it doesn't kill you then it makes you more frustrated (lol)... STRONGER

Vanity of vanities.. all is Vanity

I'm glad I get to do Bible study now. My schedule finally permits it. Some Christians do not know how invaluable it is to learn the true meanings and implication of the Word. I've been going for the past couple of weeks now, and to my chagrin, there's a lot we are ignorant about. The way we interpret things in the Bible are sometimes based off assumptions and biases. There were a lot of people making the wrong connotations to certain scriptures, and some didn't even percieve the corrections to the flawed views. I'm not going all religious here, I'm just stating that it's great that I actually know what I'm talking about now. I'll be going again tonight.

LEOCO BANQUET

It was a night of fun and remembrance. I visited the ambassador's office earlier in the day for his charity organizations conference. Seemed mundane to me, nonetheless, I would still jump at the opportunity. Me and my uncle-in-law went (he is the Whip of my organization, and I'm acting PRO). We left out of there earlier than we thought we would, just when things were statring to heat up; but of course we had to: we had our own banquet to attend, and we were both giving speeches.
Arriving just in time to play the benefit video, I stormed in with a big frame of Joseph's photograph and some petition fliers. The video was played, the fliers were passed around for people to sign--a petition to President Obama to send the Peace corps to Sierra Leone as he originally intended-- and I apologized to my guests from XLA for being late.
After the video I said a little something about poverty and how Leoco fights it through education (giving scholarships to students) and yada yada, I blanked out and took too much time.
An overall gracious night of enjoying and talking with friends all night long; and not leaving till 4am. It was simply awesome. Great Weekend!

UMD- Convergence Test

Yesterday, I went up to UMD in lieu of my transfer. It was great! It seems to get better every time I go up there. I drove around stadium drive looking for a parking spot, but then changed plans and decided to explore acres of campus space, I finally saw where the Clarice Smith theater is; grandstanding. I noticed the honors bldgs across the street (hope I get to stay in one). After finding a convenient parking spot on Stadium Dr, I ditched the vehicle and enjoyed the fresh air. All along my destination was the College of Math and Computer Sciences to turn in my LSAMP application. After that event, as it was, I turned in my shot records and proof of insurance at medical, turned in my Portney memorial app at Shoemaker bldg, and checked with financial aid on my money mannnn. Walking 'round half-the-whole campus was cool because the graduation-spectator crowd had not yet arrived in masses and it was around 10 in the morning so the grounds were empty. On my walk in the mall area, for so called good-luck, and not-breaking convention, I rubbed Testudo's nose in front of McKeldin library(I have never initiated a trip in there), then went across the street into Hornbake library to mapquest something (I'm always there), and off I was again: this time off campus exploring the city of College Park (for the first time ever).

The agricultural institute on rt.1 is amazing, went to the dmv up there (or mva, as they call it) to change my address and it's totallly different from VA, longass lines and an even longer wait (or was it just a singular experience?). After that I went to the post office to make it offical and came home, to study for my test. Took the test and felt good about it; an overall good day. Hopefully.

Memorial Day- Joseph's Annual

Yesterday, we celebrated (or rather bemoaned) the one year remembrance for our fallen comrade Joseph Lansana. Joe was like a brother to me, and did a lot to get me from an old broken path to this more secured one I'm in now. Memorial Day weekend has that meaning to us (it coincide with the day he died); as friends and family came and members of the Leoco organization amassed to pay respects. When surrounded in such settings through the air of amicability one always wishes Joe was here to make an enjoyment situation more enjoyable. That may just sum up who he was/is to us.

Meet the Ambassador

{{I wonder how this is done seeing as how I'm not a so much colorful individual. I'm infamous for skipping over minute details and talk about bigger things, in a sense, the difference b/t a journ and a log-b. So the inner workings will not be explored as much as the more obvious will be stated --keepsake?}} With that said, and with no further adieu, here we go: (no well constructed segues either).

I get to meet the Ambassador from Sierra Leone at his house in NW.
Well, I should be a bit lucid with that egg heh? It's not just me, but representatives
from various non-profit organizations from Sierra Leone and I happen to
be in a position to make a liason, so I'll be attending. Maybe it's nothing
but I'm greatful for it and I'm very appreciative. I will be representing the Leone Cooperative Organization aka Leoco. I am currently, the Public relations officer, responsible for Leoco archives and media.
Oh btw, this is my first blog ever!


~MDphyX~
~SL~